I will be starting a second part-time job in a week or so. I have never had to do two jobs in order to provide for my needs. The place I work now is packed at lunch time. The line up is continuous for two hours. They are making great money. I get paid eleven dollars an hour for my hard work which I love to do. I excel in the kitchen. For the money they are making everyday, I would not trade my time for it. I realized this today. If I had a choice to take their place of working 7 days a week for a whole year without time off instead of working for eleven dollars an hour and get to do something in nature each week, I'd choose nature.
It looks like we are needing to experience deep poverty and extreme riches in order to learn the profound lessons. It seems that the only alternative to getting out of poverty victim roles is to work your behind off and if your lucky enough you may enjoy one or two weeks a year for fun. What has happened to the people of this planet that we value dollar amounts more then we value the integrity of a human being? If I was paid for my integrity, I'd be worth millions.
I question myself as to why I'm in this job. What is it that I am meant to learn from working for a boss that is extremely picky, has no tolerance for mistakes and judges the performance of a new employee in one day? Perhaps I'm the one that is picky in areas of my life, or that I have no tolerance for mistakes, and I judge the performance of people in my life. Maybe I am being mirrored back what it is I need to look at. I have been aware lately that I seem to focus on self hating. Like I'm noticing that I'll project thoughts that frustrate me and I ends up in a hate energy. Like I hate having to work for so little pay or I hate that people litter on the ground still ( it baffles me still that people chose not to respect the planet we live on it's like we have all decided that the Earth is a giant landfill site for our emotional trash) Oh just got a great idea. ..I could go on but I will shift the hate into thoughts of love. I have to remember to love everything all the time. And it is very challenging to do.
So many people live in jobs that they hate. They hate the boss, the workers they work with, the work they have to do, the time they have to spend away from their family to provide them food , shelter and clothing. It's a love/hate relationship that never seems to end. I feel that it has a lot to do with self hate. I have to start there and turn the self hate talk, into self-love talk. I know deep in my heart I feel love for everything, and it saddens me when I get into this hate place. I don't feel like myself. But it comes up so that I can work on what is causing this emotion to fester.
So this new idea is a great project to help pass the winter time. I should have started this spring, since it involves outdoor activity. I'd better get cracking. Once I have it completed, I will share it with the world. This is what happens when I share my feelings out loud. I get to the core of inspiration that linger deep inside me. I will also have to manifest the money for it.
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