I am enjoying my seminar. It is shifting many new layers in my view on sex and intimacy. Since I have moved to my new place, just renting a room at this time, I am learning new things about the woman that I am renting from.
Their are people in this world that try to prevent us from moving forward by playing this vital part in the system of my growth. Because I mentioned to her that I was in this siminar, I realize that might have been a mistake . Sometimes people react with their point of view on a topic that is not discussed openly because they might be in a different place in their lives and it will bring up some stuff for sure.
I had asked my friend if she would be open to take her car and drive out to Banff so we could show my roommate before he heads back east. Well my intentions were good until my landlady found out that I had not invited her along. The sh_t hit the fan and she started accusing me of having sexual relations with my roommate. I was in disbelief as to how far she took the conversation.
My life is my life. I don't believe I need to invite everybody into it. So what I saw in this process so far is that the anger that she felt had nothing to do with my not inviting her. She was angry before that and I just triggered something and I got the hit.
When people react in this way, it's about them. They re-acted to what is happening in the moment because it triggered their stuff. It could have been that she felt left out, not fit in, rejected in some way.
I strongly believe that this situation was divinely orchestrated to allow both of us to look at that part in ourselves that is screaming , " what's wrong with me? That I wasn't part of this adventure"
It will be interesting to see how this unfolds as I work on my issues around sex and intimacy. Her accusations have lead her to believe that " we" need to move in together as she doesn't rent out to couples. I'm feel disappointed by all of this. It seems that she is reflecting to me my trust issues are relationships. Something that I'm sure I will be looking at in my seminar.
This situation also challenges me with moy money situation since I'm finally almost caught up on everything. Moving would set me back again. Darn it!
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It will be interesting to see how this unfolds as I work on my issues around sex and intimacy. Her accusations have lead her to believe that " we" need to move in together as she doesn't rent out to couples. I'm feel disappointed by all of this. It seems that she is reflecting to me my trust issues are relationships. Something that I'm sure I will be looking at in my seminar.
This situation also challenges me with moy money situation since I'm finally almost caught up on everything. Moving would set me back again. Darn it!
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