And That's OK

I was so busy at work yesterday, that I didn't have enough energy to write last night. So I got home, ate a bit and went to bed. It was interesting that I only spent $3.00 yesterday. I'm noticing that I don't have the need to spend money everyday like before. I got my paycheck and did what I said I was going to do with it, and I have about $20.00 left for the week for snack and coffee for work, and $80 for gas to get to work. And that's OK.

 

I adore Byron Katie's The Work. And I use it alot in my daily practice. Practically on the thoughts that make me feel upset or stressed. So when I think the thought of " I need to manage my money" I have to ask myself the question," Is that true?" I need to manage my money? And I want to answer "Yes, it is true" Then I ask," Am I absolutely sure that I need to manage my money? Is that true? I need to manage my money." My answer is still "Yes" Then I ask" How do I react when I think the thought " I need to manage my money? " I feel fearful if I think the thought I don't need to manage my money. I feel not in control, not trusting how things will unfold.

 

Then I wonder , who would I be without the thought," I need to manage my money" I would be free to love money instead of hating the idea that I need to manage it everyday. I'd be free from worrying about it everyday. I'd be more accepting of myself when it comes to having money in my life. I was talking to my friend about this. I told her I have a fear of having too much money because I fear I wouldn't be able to handle it, due to the fact I can't handle the little money I do have today. Isn't that an interesting thought. I can't handle lots of money? Is that true? No it's not true because I have never had the experience of handling lots of money, so how would I know I have this fear. It's my mind that created this thought when I was a kid, again, I go back to the experience when I was a child and my mom took my money and put it in the bank, because I couldn't handle lots of money. Fascinating how our mind can create beliefs that are lies.

 

I beleive that life gives me a push in the right direction when I need to go to the next level in my life. I have been obsessed with money all my life and I'm sure I'm not the only one who relates to this and the Universe helps me by giving me lessons to look at so I can learn how to change the way I see things. I need to remember that I'm just here to learn the lessons and not get caught up in the thoughts the my minds wants to create.

 

So today I will put $20 in gas in my truck to this week. I will go check on my garden and see if I can plant anyting else. It's a beuatiful sunny day so perhaps it would be a great idea to go outside and enjoy the weather. Before we know it , it will be fall and winter once again.

 

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