Dent in My Budget

I need to write a song, There's a dent in my budget  dear Liza Dear Liza . lol...the day yesterday was interesting. I got ready for work and got in my vehicle, turned the key and nothing happened. Great, I thought, this is exactly what I need right now. A dent in my budget. I turned the key another time and it started. Phew I thought. So I drove off to work. Stopped at a drug store across from where I work and got in my vehicle, turned the key and nothing. Crap lol, this is not happening. I must be dreaming. I crossed my fingers and tried it again, nothing, again , nothing, again nothing. OK

So I walked over to my workplace. I later returned to try it again. Nothing. God, what perfect timing. I was just starting to get ahead a bit financially. Not a lot, but there was some hope of gaining some money ahead. This is just a dent in my budget for now, I keep telling myself. Thankfully, I have enough to cover my rent. Then this morning I remembered that my plates on my vehicle are due this month. Dent number two LOL. OMG.

I had to sit with this this morning and recreate my July budget. So that means, the only enjoyment in my life to the next few months will have the be free. So lots of nature walks which I love to do anyway. And to really splurge on myself I can do a cheap movie for $5.00. That will be my way of celebrating staying on my budget. It sure takes a lot of discipline to do this money walk. But the more I stay on top of it, the better I get at it.

It is very challenging to imagine a life without having to worry about where is the money going to come from. Staying grateful that I have a job and a nephew that is a mechanic gives me a great deal for working on my truck really helps. So I'm just going to continue to hope that things will improve as I go along with life's dents. Dents can be fixed. Staying focused is the best thing I can do right now.

Surrendering to the process that is happening is not easy. There's a pony in here somewhere. If I am resisting to surrender, I probably am trying to control the process of my life. If I was in control, I would not have allowed my starter on my truck to stop working. There are things in life that remind me that I'm not in charge. So I'm looking at the symbolic meaning of my starter and my old starter in life has died and my new starter in life has begun. There's a whole lot of trust issues around surrendering.

When I surrender to the money I have to give out to fix my truck and allow what needs to happen ...happen, I will be in a state of allowing my life to flow with what shows up. Letting go of the outcome. Letting go of controlling my money when I have to use it for some needs that need to be met, like fixing my truck. Whenever something is happening in my life, it is a sign that things are working out for me on a level that I may not be seeing at the moment. So I have to trust that I will have enough money to survive and everything is working out for me. What a concept.


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