Are we resisting the opportunity to change our lives? All these fears of opportunities. Part of me says I really want it. Part of me says I really need it. It cn be painful and scary that it's not showing up in my life yet. It's the feeling that there is something wrong here that shows up. I continue to wor on accepting what is happening in my life today. so that I can become open to what is really best for me.
I continue to believe the idea that really good opportunities are available to me. There is a place for me. I have great value to offer. And there are opportunities out there for me to share that value. I could be doing it right now, with this blog. I don't know what you all think of me doing this blog. I'm guessing by the stats that you are interested in what I have to say. So that must mean I have some value in your life because you take time to read it. So thank you for that.
I still seem to run on some old programming that says maybe I'm not ready, or that maybe it's not safe. Maybe it will cost too much. These are just lies and misunderstandings that I have learned in my childhood. It upsets me when I think of all the programs I was given that doen't support my well being in life. It has cost me my joy of living life to the fullest because I have listened to too many people telling me what was the right and wrong thing to do.
Some advice was good, but most of it was not what I was craving in life. I was craving adventure and entertaining people since I was a kid. And that excitement for life seemed to diminish at a very early age. I was constantly criticized as a child , like most of us were, and I notice still today I get defensive when I am criticized for something I do or say still . Yesterday, my landlady noticed I had a pitcher with a filter full of water on the counter. She pointed out that that was not safe water to drink, because it is sitting in plastic all day.
She explained how the chlorine is not killing the chemicals blah blah blah. I've heard it all before , how plastic is not good for us. So instead os telling her that I was aware of the dangers and taking herbs to eliminate the side affects, I dumped the water, agreed with her speech and say, " as long as your happy" That does not come from a place of power. It came from a place of pleasing other people first. So that could be the reason I dismiss opportunities that show up in my life. Because I deeply believe people don't listen to me anyway, so why bother. I have to work on this one, seriously
Just because I don't have a bachelors degree in something, doesn't mean I don't bring value to peoples lives. We judge people so harshly sometimes. We see kids with no degrees at all and they complete extraordinary things in the world. The see the opportunity and the junp for it, and don't let anything get in their way. We need to become more like that.
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